Well i havent been around in a while....really havent even been on the computer...lets see what do i have to update about??

First off lets talk about my bday...it was ok. Got some cute gifts. Didnt do to much that nite my mama made a cake!

Hmm what else has been going on?? not to much...i mean i have been extremely busy but not with anything good.

Lets see next thing...went to the memorial day fireworks...got a lil drunk had a lil fun but other than that the only thing i remember about it...is i had to walk like a 2 miles to my car and my feet were like blistered! (note to everyone: dont wear converse if u have to walk alot) The nite before the fireworks went to benihana for greg's bday and mary also got me a birthday candle!! aww it was so cute then hungout with them afterward. Jimmy drove and we had a blast coming home a lil baked and laughing hysterical. what was with that movie...hmm i dunno..hehe

other than that just been working and hanging out. i just realized the time i have to run some errands...so ill post more later...til then mwa!!! <3

Well another weekend came and went...On friday i went out to dinner with kerri to grand luxe cafe for the first time. It was so nice there...drinks a lil pricy my YUMMY strawberry martini was $11 and my salad was 13$ but it was worth it. Lots of ppl and good times!!! i didnt like the salad all to much but i loved the dessert. They have this baked to order. U order it when u order ur entree and they bake it fresh for u. It was so good!!!! we saw some cute boys and that is always a plus to going anywhere :). Other than that didnt do to much.

Thank god summer is here. Just waiting for the warm weather to get here. LOL cant wait for this Dredful rain to stop.

Today i went to target had to get some new windshield wipers for the blueberry and i bought one tree hill season 1 and the O.C. season 1 on DVD...so excited seeing as im completely obsessed with both those shows!! they were on sale for 23$ each that is so cheap for the complete season. How could i pass that up...umm i think not!! other than that...my sunday was pretty boring watched Casanova with heath ledger...ehh its alright im glad i didnt spend 10$ in the theater to see it.

exactly 1 day until my bday!!! im so old 22!!!! i cant believe it i couldnt wait to be 21 and now im already 22 its scary. Anyway just wanted to put im some type of entry its 12:25 so i should really get to sleep...gotta get up early in the morning!!!

Well another weekend came and went. Didnt do much of anything...went to see the new lindsay lohan movie which was badddd i thought it would be a cute girly movie...umm think again! it was so dumb dont waste ur 10 dollars to see it. LOL! anyway other than that didnt do anything else. Sunday was mothers day i bought my madre perfume flowers a card and then we had a family bbq cause my grandma decided she didnt want to go to a restaurant. Well whatever it was fine we got a cake for all the mothers in the house and jsut chilled out for a while.

Well my birthday is one week from TOMORROW...im so excited. My spice will be home for my bday which is awesome cause we havent spent a birthday together in forever!!!! Im siked to hangout with him.

What would u do if u loved someone and u knew for a long time u loved them but knew u could never be with them. Would u wait for them, go on living ur life and just find someone that is not them but the next best thing. Or would u just be alone wishing and hoping one day it would be able to workout? Im not saying u couldnt be with them cause of another girl or because they just didnt like u like that but because u knew ur relationship could never be on that level, because they were too much older or too much younger than u. U wouldnt be able to be with them becuase of things that are unchangeable, what would u do then? See i have been in this situation for a while. I mean i have grown to jsut put it away and in the back of my mind and on most days i seem to be ok but every chance i get to hangout with that person all the feelings come rushing back. I know i cant be with them but i still love the feeling i get when they are around. its not butterflies its just complete love for who they are. They are everything i have ever looked for in the opposite sex. I guess i just keep going the way i am. Looking for someone but always be thinking of them at the same time. I really am not unhappy for some reason about this situation. I am an all around happy person with myself and the ppl i have in my life but for so long now there has always been that one lil piece to the puzzle missing. Oh well life goes on. I will find someone and be completely happy with them. Some day some how love will find a way!!!

8 days and counting(til the big 22 for me)

Ok well im completely new to this journal thing. I mean i have been reading my friend mary's journal for like months now but always felt i wouldnt know what to say if i were to start one.

It's thursday the 11th of may and my birthday is in 12 days. im old im gonna be 22...ughhh lol. Well i havent really be up to anything new. Im so happy that tomorrow is friday cause on saturday im getting a haircut...yayyy i so need one. Last nite me and jackie were watching The O.C. season one and at the end of the episode this song came on when seth and summer were dancing and we couldnt figure out who sang it but i found it on my handy dandy limewire today. so now i havent been able to stop playing it. I think its obsession. haha!! Do any of u know who the Rascal Flatts are? well if u dont like country music then u wouldnt but i love country music and i love the rascal flatts just another thing im obsessed with.

Another topic on my mind is school i just applied to go back to school today actually. I'm so excited!! I went to college for ultrasound but that field is so difficult in NY and my true dream would to be a 2nd grade teacher. So i signed up for classes at nassau rite because when i finished school that loan was 20,000$ and so i want to go easy on the tuition rite now..haha but i think after a year i want to transfer to somewhere. Just not sure what school yet.

Well its about 6:15 now and my mom is calling me to eat dinner so i guess this is good enough for my first journal entry. Nothing to exciting but hey im new and they will get better.(hopefully)hope to do something fun this weekend so i can have something good to update with...peace for now! mwa